Going back to school and finding my brain

I'm two weeks into the whole Going-Back-To-School thing and getting my head around it because I'll be doing it for a long time before I actually finish. Like. I'll be 40 in 6 years time.

It's like living that bad dream I used to have after I finished uni 165 years ago. I kept dreaming that I hadn't actually finished my Commerce degree at all and I would wake up all sweaty and shaky amongst the realisation that I hadn't actually finished my uni degree. SHIT! I didn't finish!?

No wait.

It was a dream. I actually did finish and graduate (and worked in retail, made no difference to the world, got annoyed with the politics, wore ridiculously high shoes, got bored often and hated it with a passion).

And here I am choosing to go back. It's a strange journey, life. Isn't it?

As I'm doing it part time I have two subjects. The trickiest is Chemistry and Biochemisty. There are equations to balance and coefficient numbers and moles and molecules, protons and electrons and atoms and it did make me cry the first few days but it's ok now, I'm getting it.

And then there is History of Healing and learning about how different communities throughout the ages in varying parts of the world used herbs and food to heal. It's mesmerising.

It's different to the last time I was studying because I actually want to do this. I had no idea what I wanted to do when I left school so Commerce seemed like an all round good choice to make because business is everywhere. Can't really go wrong with that can you? God what did I know. I was just a baby. Turns out I wasn't really the businessy type.

It's quite the juggle with the kids (especially now that they are on holidays) and running the household and the blog and cooking and baking everything and reading about food and fermenting this and that and learning as much as I can for myself.

I love going into these stationery shops and buying everything knowing I actually REALLY DO NEED those delicious scented micro highlighters in 4 convenient colours.

And using Google to study? Well. Google was not even invented when I was at uni last. The internet was just starting to pop up. Gawd. It really was 165 years ago.....